I started seeing Dr. Hayden when I was a senior in high school. I told my dad that she was awful, but he didn't listen. Five years later, he's begging me to go to a different psychiatrist because it's become apparent how terrible she is, but I now work full time in DC and don't have the time to find a better psychiatrist. Let me say this- people's opinions on this doctor are polarized. The ones who like her, love her. The ones who don't like her have a list of reasons why. This is because she treats people in two different ways. She puts 100% effort in for some, and 0% for the rest. As a teenager and young adult, I was in the second category. My meetings with her have always lasted about five minutes or less, and I almost always have to wait 45 minutes or more to see her. I've had to walk out more times than I can count, because I was going to be late to class, work, or another appointment. You have to schedule your appointments about a month in advance, and she cancels up to 30% of… the time. During that 5 minute appointment, she asks me how I'm doing, and it doesn't matter if I tell her that I am feeling suicidal, that I feel like I'm going into a state of psychosis, that I tried to commit suicide that day, or that I'm becoming addicted to my medication (all of which I have), she doesn't bat an eyelash. She will literally say 'I'm sorry to hear that. Alright, here's your prescriptions, see you in two weeks!' I am STUNNED. I thought that was illegal. As someone who was hospitalized for suicide attempts during my time as a patient of hers, I thought sure she would at least offer to help. I also have legitimately said "I'd like to start taking this, for this reason" and she has said "okay, what dosage would you like?". I have gone back to her several times and asked for an increased dosage, until I was taking the strongest dosage offered. This has happened with three controlled substances. I wound up in the hospital from one, and am currently dependent on the two others. It now says on my medical records that I'm diagnosed with the disorders which are treated by the medication I'm on, but she never gave me a formal diagnosis or even told me I had those disorders. I'm currently in the process of finally getting another doctor, so I can get a diagnosis from someone who knows nothing about this doctor or what she's diagnosed and prescribed me. Every day is a struggle because I'm trying to balance between the two very strong, very dangerous and addictive medications she prescribed me several years ago. I've told her about this and she has completely ignored it. Last year, she started me on a new, experimental medication, and assured me it was non addictive, non habit forming, and wouldn't be hard to come off. That was a lie. I've missed a day of my medication three times since last year and all three times I've had to be taken to urgent care or the hospital for the withdrawal symptoms. This happened at my most recent appointment, and I, sobbing, told her I'd been endangering myself and others, was having suicidal thoughts, and severe physical symptoms. She said 'life stinks when you don't take that medicine, right?' and then made a sad face at me, wrote me the WRONG prescriptions, and sent me on my way. It took a week for me to get her to correct the prescriptions, and so for a week I was without both medications I'm dependent on. I have never felt more like a drug addict than I did that week. Since then, I've started trying to find another doctor because I'm scared that she's not looking out for my best interests and knows she can make money off of me by prescribing me addictive medications. Like I said, I've been a patient of hers for a long time. If I can't get off these medications on my own, I'll have to go to rehab. This has been going on for years and it's finally to that point. It affects every area of my life, but she has no sympathy, hasn't offered to change what I'm on or reduce the dose, hasn't given me any advice, etc. I've had to look up solutions on my own and when I ask her about them, either she doesn't know the answers, or she gives me the wrong ones. I've brought in articles, studies, diagrams, etc. to ask her questions about and she never seems to know what's going on. She's never ONCE asked me about parts of my life such as nutrition, sleep patterns, excercise, substance use, daily activities, etc. It has ONLY been about prescriptions. She's never once suggested supplements or natural solutions to me. Unfortunately, when I started seeing her, I was too young to know what was best for myself, and I had no idea that doctors didn't have the answers. I wish I hadn't asked her for those medications, and I wish she hadn't just given them to me without question. She knows I'm addicted to both of my medications and she has never offered to help, lower the dose, or change my medications. She doesn't even respond when I talk about it. She's making tons of money off double booking people, putting them on as many medications as possible, and not giving them real solutions that would lead them to a place other than her office. Her decisions have only deteriorated my mental health over the past five years.
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